A very different year and reality
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To those of you who visit regularly I am sorry for the quiet and for the absence.
January was nerve wracking after the outbreak of the deadly parvo virus. There has been many visits to the vet. As you can imagine - the slightest sniffle or not eating on cue has been a cause of concern and four more cats went in for some days for observation. One cat had the virus but miraculously survived.
During all this time I of course felt very concerned about the cats placed in isolation. They have been very frustrated but eventually all had their first vaccinations three weeks ago. Eventually things went fine but then after about a week Noona's appetite diminished. She started loosing weight and eventually started having breathing difficulties. Last week she had blood tests and an xray to determine what what going on. The results left me stunned. She had a build up of fluid around her lungs which turned out to be FIP (feline infectious peritonitis) a fatal incurable and contagious disease - transmitted through cat-to-cat contact and exposure to feces. Well, go figure if my heart just sank deeply beneath the earth upon this information. FIP is developed via feline coronavirus and cats that have been initially exposed to the feline coronavirus usually show no obvious symptoms! From the information I've gathered I have learned though that only a small percentage of cats that are exposed to the feline coronavirus develop FIP and that this can occur weeks, months, or even years after initial exposure. There is no incubation period, which naturally leaves me even more on edge.
It's difficult to determine whether any of the other cats in isolation will have contracted the virus. If their immune is strong they are more likely to have resisted the exposure. They all just had their first vaccinations when this broke out so I don't know yet if this will have weakened them further. One had a mild cold just before the vaccination (vet thought it safest to go ahead anyway due to the parvo scare) and three others have had eye infections. Noona have obviously always been a carrier of the coronavirus and it is only (ironically) because she had the vacciantion she developed FIP. It simply tipped her immune system. On the one side sad and frustrating but on the other I would never have known about the coronavirus had she not become sick.
As for Noona she has spent 6 days at the vet but was brought home today to give her the best life quality possible for her remaining time. The vet believes this can be days or maybe a few weeks. She is back in the room where she initially started her rescue and healing. She has responded in a very happy manner to being brought back home... endless purring and thankful rolling on the floor. Now we will do all we can to give her the best time possible.
I feel saddened that a deadly virus has yet again struck. On top - sometimes fate can seem to have a strange twist of irony. The vet has only seen an outbreak of FIP 4-5 times over the last 10 years! As I believe I've said before, I do believe things happen for a reason but it's difficult to resist the question: Why here? Why among my cats? I continue though to muster all my courage and strength although I must say that it genuinely has been a bit worn recently.
This image of Noona is from a beautiful day in early December - my last images of Lilly was taken the same day.
Comments
I agree with Sandra. So sad it might be, you have done a great work for all your cats. Each one, which is going home leaves an empty space in your heart and your house. But there are so many more cats, who need your care and will happily fill the loss. So many children die in the world and they are all going home to Him. And so do those cats. Nothing will bother or scare them there anymore. So don't be desperate, just accept, what happen. You did all you could. Some things are not in our power.
Hugs and greetings,
Johanna
Here in New Zealand I'm thinking of you, Noona and all your cats. Say hello to them from me, and tell them that you are all cared about from afar.
I give you a big bear hug, you may need it .
XXXXXX
Bea
It leaves me kind of numb to read your words, like my own source of words has "dried out"...seems so sad and unfair and with no known reason at all. However, I´m glad you told us all about it, so we can send thoughts of support and strength your way. And it sounds like (from the comments) that it is not that unusual an illness after all. Please don´t blame yourself for making the decisions you did (the vaccination of Noona etc.)You did it from true love, concern and care, and had no way of knowing what the result could be. Seems part of your house is now a "hospice" for Noona, and I hope you´ll have rich days of nearness with her, letting her know how dearly she is loved. There could be no better way for her to leave (when the time comes)than in this kind of ecology. Am so pleased she is home, and not being away (at the vet´s) like Lilly. At least you have the circumstance now to care for her in her remaining time - hopefully a long time...!
Dearest thoughts from Anna E
You last sentence about the picture taken from Noona on the same day you took Lilly's picture... did hit me hard. Was that a fore bearer of the same fate?
What can you do more than love this little girl. Life for them was too short but the reality is that had YOU not taken care of them they long would have perished. Now they got to know a loving person, a clean fur coat, a safe place to sleep and being sheltered, enough and healthy food with medical care. LOVE in all forms does hurt at one time or another. When things are all well it feels good but letting go of yet another being we love so deeply stings our soul.
Love to you and be strong.
Mariette
I am so sorry to hear all of this sad news.
I had hoped that things were slowly returning to normal for you and all of those beautiful kitties.
I will be praying for your dear sweet Noona.
She is here.
She mattered.
and she is loved.
purrs
>^,,^<
♥Abby♥Boo♥Ping♥Jinx♥Grace♥
Karin
I am keeping you in my prayers for peace, comfort and strength for you and all those in your care.
“We who choose to surround ourselves
with lives even more temporary than our
own, live within a fragile circle;
easily and often breached.
Unable to accept its awful gaps,
we would still live no other way.
We cherish memory as the only
certain immortality, never fully
understanding the necessary plan.”
x
Mika is the youngest of my cats.
I am so sorry to read about Charlie and Lilly - such precious souls. How lucky there were to know your love and kindness.
But now this horrible disease FIP. Many years ago I had to say goodbye to Sir Petey who developed complications and no longer had full lung capacity. We feared it was FIP. Luckily, it was FIV. We too were told how rare it was - thankfully. And yet here it is with one of yours. I am so incredibly sorry. My heart goes out to you. Love will not heal this, but Noona knows love and that is without a doubt the very best thing you could ever give her. Ever.
Thank you again.
"Her" and Romeo (who is a rescue, as are all his brothers and sisters)